She was sleeping. She was sleeping in her crib, alone in the dark, and she looked so incredibly peaceful. My big girl was ready for her own bed, and she was trying to tell me that for three whole hours. I moved the baby monitor into her room, and snuggled up on the couch with the receiving end clutched to my chest. She would wake up soon, and she would be scared, lonely and starved for attention from Mommy.
She woke up at 7am, bright eyed and giggly. She slept from 7pm to 7am in her crib last night. I put her in her bed today a noon, kissed her cheek and told her it was nap time. I shut the door behind me and grabbed the baby monitor. I heard her music begin to play, and nothing else. Three minutes later:
I have to admit, I'm absolutely devastated. I know I'm being overdramatic, but I'm seriously the saddest person in the whole world right now. I knew she wouldn't sleep with us forever, I just didn't know she would be ready to leave before I was ready. I wasn't ready. She's growing up so fast, becoming this independent little person who doesn't need me as much anymore, and it totally breaks my heart. I've been weepy since noon.
I am so insanely proud of her though.
I will be a total wreck when she goes to college. A train wreck.